How did you happen to get into doing bondage and fetish modeling?
Shortly after I turned 18, I discovered that my good friend Lorelei was
living a (not so secret) life...what can I say, I was very naive at the
time! I was intensely interested for a variety of reasons, not least of
which was my budding exploration of my own sexuality and those play
behaviors and identities that I fetishized. Lori had started working
with another friend of ours, Darla Crane. Since I also deeply admired
Darla and Lori, I wanted to do the cool things they were doing. I was
an easy and entirely willing "mark", and soon began working with Lori, Darla,
Chelsea
Pfeiffer, Star Chandler, Dorothy Laine,
and others. Working with these women has always been a great deal of
fun, and the shoots usually had an atmosphere of light and playful
camaraderie that made even the strictest tie or the most strident
spanking an intimate game between us.
What was your first bondage shoot like? Do any memories about it stand out?
It was outdoors in the mountains near Santa Clarita. In High School I
used to sneak out to go camping there with my friends, so the site had
really good memories and associations for me. I remember that Lori was
very worried about how young I looked (I still can easily pass as ten
years younger than I am...a situation that constantly confounds my
students, who insist on believing I'm near their age!). I don't think
we used any masks during that shoot, but I do know that one of the
results of that shoot was that Lori spent the next year or so trying to
keep my face covered in photosets so she wouldn't get in trouble over
my perceived youth.
What
types of storylines or themes did you prefer to work on? Love bondage,
damsel in distress, sexual girl/girl themes, high fetish, adventure,
glamour bondage, other?
I enjoyed the strange, almost twincesty set of shoots and videos that I
did with Morgan Phoenix. She was great fun to work with, and I have to
admit to a strain of narcissism that makes me very attracted to women
who resemble me. It's not really narcissism...it's my attraction to the
uncanny. Seeing a person make love to themselves in a mirror does the
same thing for me. There's a great burlesque act with two women in fin de sicle
nightgowns who do a striptease with a mirror frame between them, so
that it looks like a woman teasing herself. Very artful, and totally
hot! I also enjoyed anything with costumes and corsets, and although I
liked playing the sub-with-moxie, I really got a kick out of being the
cackling villainess.
One of your personal fetishes is corsets. How many corsets have you made? How many do you own currently?
I've made five "serious" corsets, and about a dozen bodices, waist
cinchers, etc. I've bought four, and have inherited a few as well. I
don't know what my current count is, but I would reckon it as upwards
of thirty. Of course, I've also loaned out a few that never found their
way back to me...but such is life. My most recent corset is purchased.
It's purple leather with buckles all over the place. It doesn't take me
down as much as I would like because it isn't custom made, and my hip
to waist ratio is such that I really need a custom corset for a decent
fit, but the corset was for a costume for a character, so I wasn't too
concerned.
Do you have any recollection of how any of your fetish interests got started?
Reading. I remember very well that I had my first intentionally caused orgasm while reading
Little Women
by Louisa May Alcott. All my other fetishes, from my interest in the
uncanny to my fascination with transcending gender can be traced back
to characters and books that I have read. A strong secondary influence
has been classical film, especially films with a dance element. I love The Red
Shoes, The Glass
Slipper, the ballet sequences in Hans Christian Anderson and
An American in
Paris.
Leslie Caron was one of my first crushes (although Kate Winslet is my
current and most long-standing crush...again with the uncanny!)
What bondage positions did you prefer? What was your least favorite position?
I was always sad that I couldn't get my elbows close together, and very
envious of models who could. I really enjoyed suspensions and pole
ties, and of course bed ties, because they're just so relaxing that you
could fall asleep right there, snug in the confines of the ropes. I
didn't particularly like anything where I had to lie on my hands for
long periods, or anything where I had to squat on my knees. This was
mostly because I've been a dancer for so long that I have crap for
knees, and even squatting for short periods can really mess them up.
What type of gag did you most prefer? Which was your least favorite gag?
After seeing the lips-drawn-on-duct tape gag on Drew Barrymore in Charlie's
Angels,
I really don't think I appreciated the look of that enough when I was
working. I look back at photos now and it looks a lot cooler than I
thought at the time. My favorites, however, were the classic
cloth/scarf gags. I like the old detective mag look. I don't think I
have a least favorite, but I do have to say that the weirdest one I
ever experienced was being gagged with a phone receiver. I don't recall
if that ever made it to film because it ended up being so difficult to
do, but I do remember spending almost an hour trying to make it work.
Which bondage work did you like better -- still photos, or video production?
For looks I like the stills, but I have more fun doing video. I'm such
a ham, and I can really get into the play of making a video, whether
I'm playing the dom or the sub. I can be going along very seriously
when suddenly my sense of the ridiculous gets the better of me and I
will toss out a completely hammy line with a totally straight face. I
honestly don't know if anyone else ever enjoyed my sense of humor, but
I had a blast with it!
Can you recall some memories from bondage shoots?
Well, there was my first shoot with Darla and Raoul. We were shooting
at my parent's empty house (it was for sale). I was upstairs in my old
bedroom, tied up in my closet when suddenly the front door opened and
the real estate agent walked in, wanting to know who the hell we were
and what we were doing in the house. While Darla stalled him, Raoul
frantically cut me loose and I threw on a long t-shirt (inside out and
backwards, we later realized) and went out to explain to the agent that
I was the daughter of the owners and had every right to be there. He
left and we all had a moment of "Oh, crap...that was close!" I had a
lot of moxie back then!
One person who really deserves a mention is "The
Crooked Claw"!
The whole persona really did it for me, and I loved it every time I got
to work with Jon and Lori doing Claw stuff. He had the cape, the voice,
and the laugh that was meant to make the ladies swoon. I don't know
what became of The Claw... I believe when last I heard of him he had
fallen off a cliff? Perhaps he's due for a nefarious comeback!
Besides bondage, what other types of fetish work did you do?
Some foot-fetish, lots of spanking and tickling. I always really
enjoyed the tickling, and it is probably the fetish that I still
participate in the most. I've also become very good at hypnotism and
mind control because it is my partner's fetish, but that's more for
personal consumption than public!
I know you have a successful "real" career now, but do you ever miss the bondage modeling?
I do miss it. Mostly I miss participating in the creation of classical
bondage imagery, and in the fun and friendly atmosphere that was also
created. I miss the casual intimacy of a shoot, and the easy manner
with which we all approached our sexuality and sexual interests. There
was no cognitive dissonance between talking about show tunes and
talking about spanking... they were all facets of things that we loved,
and we could be open about them. In my "real life" now I have to be a
bit more careful, and as such it is more difficult to find that free
and open communication. I miss that a lot.
Anything else you would like to say? Especially to those fans who still ask after you in the bondage forums. :)
I have several *gorgeous* friends who want me to dress them up, tie them up and take pictures, and
if I can ever figure out the legality of the whole thing, I may do just that.
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